I really think I am since I have come back to CT from Fargo on Sunday. It was the most difficult decision I have made in my life so far. I wanted to stay there with my mom and my brother, but I also didn't want to miss so many classes in school. If I did miss some classes this semester, I may waste another whole year to graduate... But is school really that important? More important than my family? I don't think so. However, my dad's situation is kind of stable now. He is still in ICU, still in a very critical condition, still needs to get surgery every other day, but beside sitting in the hospital with my mom and my brother all day, I can't do anything else to help my dad. Beside school, I do have to get ready to move. yes, Andrew and I are moving next week, and we haven't even started packing yet. Like Andrew said, we can also fly back if we need to. Also my mom told me to go back to CT even I know she didn't mean it. My heart was broken when the plane took off at Fargo Airport... It was a terrible feeling...
While in the hospital all the time last week, I finished knitting the Monkey.
And I got to visit the LYS twice in Fargo which it was closing. And what that means? Big sale of course! Andrew and I had about 1 hour free one day, so I asked him to visit that store. Without a GPS, we got lost at first, then we found it after a while. I went in, most of the good stuff were gone. And since we had to rush back to the hospital(lack of time to shop) and lack of luggage room, I only bought a magazine. The Vogue Knitting winter 2005/06 issue for only $2. And the last day in Fargo, after packing up, which I know I had a little room for yarn, I asked my mom if I could go to the yarn store again before going to see my dad. She said ok, so we all went together. This time, I spent about 1/2 hour there, and picked out 4 skeins of socks yarn, $3.5 per skein. I only took pictures of two skeins of Jawoll because I want to give the other two (another brand) to my Secret Pal. I also bought some Fiber Trends patterns which they are usually $5+ each. And I got 6 of them for $1.5 each!!
I think knitting really helps reducing the stress, helps keeping the bad thoughts out of my mind. Yarn Shopping really makes me forget the unhappiness.
After I came back, I have tried to catch up things in school. It seems I am having a very tough semester although it's only the beginning of the third week of school... good luck to me.
At last, I want to thank you for all of my friends' support. The messages you have left means a lot to me. Thank you very much everyone!!