10 October, 2007

Decision made!

I have been very stressed out lately that I think I may have gone crazy. After coming back from Fargo to see my dad, I moved to a new place right away and have been trying to catch up school and keep working part-time. Apparently I am not a superwoman, I found that I can't do everything at the same time. I have been trying so hard to pack, unpack, organize the new house, clean up the old house, go to work, and go to school. I feel like I am physically and mentally lost.

Last weekend, I found myself running around the house like a crazy lady. While I was folding laundry, I saw some books lying on the floor, so I took the books upstairs to put on the bookshelves. Then I found some cleaning items on the shelves, so I took them down to the kitchen. Then I found that I needed some paper towel in the kitchen, so I ran down to basement to get it. while I was in the basement, I found some DVDs that I could put them on the shelves next to the TV. Then, of course, I forgot to bring paper towel with me and took the DVDs upstairs. I found something next to the TV that I need to put it back in the room. When I walked back into the room, I was like, right, I was folding the laundry... It didn't only happen once. These cases happened several times last week. I am so lost.

And I feel so bad that I don't have time to do homework. I have stocked up a lot of them. Since there are some tests coming up, and mid-term, I am very worried. Why don't I have time? I got up at 6:30am, get ready for work; get off work around 4-5pm, go to classes; classes end around 9-9:30pm, go home. By the time I get home and start eating dinner, it's around 10-10:30. Clean up the house a bit. I have been having 4hours of sleep last week. Now, I know it maybe an excuse for me being lazy. Since I only work part-time, 3 days a week, I still have couple days off that I could do my hw. Ideally, yes. But, I just don't know where did the time go.

Yes, I know I bitch a lot, and that is why I need to go SnB. And I went last week, and it made me feel so good. I could see my friends, knit for a while, chat for a while. I miss it a lot.

Since my life has been having a lot going on, I was going to give up something. And After talked to my Mom, Mom H, and my friends, I have made my decision that I won't give it up. I would try my best to do what I am doing. Thank you all very much for standing by my side all the time. It really means a lot to me.

Now it's my dad's update. My mom told me that the doctor has gone on vacation. And before he left, he checked on my dad and said the infection inside the body is pretty much gone, although he is still in CCU. If next week, after he come back from vacation, and my dad still looks good, then he will go ahead and sew my dad up. I think it's a very good news.

Jen, I want to apologized that what I have said in the message I have left in your blog. I really didn't mean it that way. I was only joking, I am sorry.


Anonymous said...

You know we are all behind you Phoebe!! You are doing sooo much...and trying to do it all perfectly. Keep taking little bites out of each thing and it will all get done...just remember to take care of Y-O-U!!
Mom H

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Erin said...

Hi Phoebe,
I am totally with you on the stress thing. It seems like I'm always reading for class or in class or thinking about class. With the stress of moving and your family situation, I know it can't be easy. Hang in there, I know you can do it!
p.s. I'm jealous you made it to S&B. I miss you guys!!