Cooking mama

Andrew got me a Wii game that I have been wanting for long time. It's called Cooking Mama. It's obviously a game about cooking. By moving the control, the player could do chopping, peeling, stirring, mixing dough? ect... I played for 3.5 hours last night after SnB, and my arms are a bit sore.

Speaking of SnB, I honestly have thought about stop going there lately. Here is the reason... I have noticed that around my friends from school and SnB, I still couldn't express myself all the time. What I mean is, I always said something that I didn't mean, or the way I said it turned out it sounded rude or non-sense. Mostly of the time, I understand what people are talking about in the conversations, but when it's my turn to say something, I don't know what to say or I would say something that makes me sound stupid or looks like an idiot. Sometimes, I sound like yelling; sometimes I sound like I am from another planet. I don't know what would people think if someone gave them an annoying look of "what the heck are you talking about"? For me, I would be very upset and frustrated. Don't get me wrong, not that my SnB friends or my classmates would give me that look, they are all being so patient to me. It's just that I am upset that I can't speak English like I speak Chinese which could let me talk regularly or at least use the right words for everything. I said I didn't want to go to SnB because, I guess I have lost the confident to actually go out of the house and talk to anyone besides my husband and my family. I even said to Andrew that I didn't want to leave the house, I didn't want to see anyone else, I don't want to be annoying to people, and I don't want to humilate myself anymore. I am mad at myself that I have been in the States for 7 years, and my english is still embarrassingly bad which most of the time people still don't understand what I am saying. I am very very depressed.